If God Will Provide

You don't have to read this blog or look at my Facebook profile much to know that I am so happy to be here at Florida State University right now! I know this sounds so cliche, but I'm living the dream. I'm learning so much about Spanish and the Latino culture through my classes in the Spanish program. I've met so many amazing people in my classes and through the Baptist Collegiate Ministry. I've been able to live my dream of helping people from other countries adjust to life in America (and share my Savior with them!) through this ah-mazing club sponsored by the BCM called Friends of Internationals. Plus, I have my own apartment-which means that I can sit up at 2:50 AM and drink coffee while writing a blog without having to worry about waking up good ol' John and Karen Rambo :) Oh, and I've found an amazing church called Fellowship of the Hills! Not to mention I'm going to spend my entire summer in Peru doing mission work and possibly my spring break in Panama! Yeah life is pretty much awesome now.

God has provided for me. Every desire that He has placed on my heart He has given to me. I'm blessed beyond my wildest dreams. Yet there's that one special person He hasn't brought into my life at this time, and that's the right guy.

You, oh Life in the Teepee! reader, are probably laughing at me right now. And ha ha ha to you too. I mean, I know that I won't even be 20 for a few more months, so I still have my whole life ahead of me. I probably don't even have time for a boyfriend right now between schoolwork, BCM/FI activities, and a job next semester. Plus, not having a boyfriend/husband to fall in love with means that I can 100% fall in love with my Maker. And all of these reasons are great. But sometimes on nights like tonight, I wonder if this is the one thing God won't provide me.

I know that I'm weird, both inside and out. I have red hair for Pete's sake, red hair that makes me stand out from a crowd. I speak English with a deep Southern accent, yet speak Spanish in a way that made my professor from Spain ask me if I was from Argentina. Being from a town where some people think that Mexicans swim the Great Lakes to come to the U.S, I stood out because I was the only kid in 3rd grade who would rather study a globe than play kickball. I'm even a bit weird at FSU because instead of looking foward to partying on Friday nights, I get excited about drinking tea with international students for an hour and then helping students from all over the world go grocery shopping. Before that I walk around campus and start up conversations with students that lead to discussions about Christianity, then I bring cookies
to students' dorms who visit the BCM for the first time and chat with them. I'm not really normal lol. So if God will provide someone who can accept that about me, that will be awesome.

Sometimes I wonder if I get discouraged about falling in love because God hasn't provided many men in my life before. I've only seriously dated one person and gone on a few dates with three others. Most people start dating when they are 15 or 16, but I didn't even start until I was 18. I know that all things happen in God's time, but the fact that I didn't start dating until later doesn't give me much hope that God will provide.

If God will provide a husband for me one day, I wonder who it will be. Maybe I've met him already, but now isn't the right time for him to pursue me. There's always the chance that I haven't met him yet, but it's possible that I'll meet him tomorrow. No matter when he might come in my life, I really hope that God will provide him.

All things happen in time. I had the dreams of learning/studying a foreign language, living on my own, getting involved in an amazing collegiate ministry, and volunteering with immigrants to the US for a reason. God has given me the chance to do all of these things now. I lay my desire of having a husband in God's hands. If it's God's will to provide, then He will.